Have a little Faith....

I cannot explain why life happens. Or why bad things happen to good people. Or why more and more people and children in this world have cancer. Or why my friend has a handicap son. Or why my other friend lost her baby at 7 months pregnant. Or why my grandmother died of colon cancer. Or why my aunt has breast cancer. Or why people with masters degrees work at Mcdonalds.

These are the things I question everyday. Why them? Why me? Just why?

I am a christian girl. Grew up Catholic. Went to a catholic school for 9 years. Go to church every Sunday. I pray. But my husband pointed out, that someone who prays like I do, and goes to church like I do, Why do I have such little faith? People who have faith shouldn't ask why. Or play the what if game. What if I loose a child? What if I miscarry a baby? What if my son is handicap? What if I get cancer?

I have to not play this game that I know I will never win. It's endless. It will always win until I have more faith that God has taken care of me for almost 24 years now, so why am I doubting His works?

Everyone has their own cross to bare, and the cross I have to bare is one I would not wish on even my worst enemy. I wish to not speak of this on my blog, but I have something that is cureable yes, but something that takes so much energy, and time to do everyday. I am lucky to have a great support system. I come home some nights, look at my sleeping husband and say to myself, God, you do only the best work. Thank you for bringing him to me to be my rock through absolutly everything. God has way more faith in me than I could ever have in myself. I will pull through this. Why you may ask? Because I have to. Is has to work out. Doesn't it always?

So ask yourself, do you have enough faith? If you do, pat yourself on the back or give yourself a giant hug(even if your in a crowd and people think you have gone mad) Faith is not an easy thing to have. People act like they have it, when really it is just that. An act.

Here is the song of my night. Enjoy! Remember, have more faith in yourself and others and most importantly, God.

-Lindsey

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DAWhSIH2d5c